Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Krazy Over Keith

Since I had finished college I worked at a government agency in MD, it had zero to do with what I went to school for but the pay was excellent so I couldn't knock that. The job, not so much, it took alot to learn it but I was finally getting the hang of things. That is until I saw Keith. I remember it like it was yesterday even though this happened over a year ago. He waltzed pass my desk one day, we made eye contact and he smiled. That's it! I was always told I was a pretty decent looking chick so for me that just simply wouldn't do. I was puzzled as my friend, Yolanda, walked up. We had went to college together and she had been working at the job about a year longer then me. I wouldn't dare tell Yolanda about my new found crush, she was hell bent on me being with Eden, all my friends were, all they saw was the materialistic side of our past relationship and they were smitten with him! Ugh!
Any who she stood talking and diverting my attention for a while until Keith rounded the corner and stopped at my desk. He introduced himself and dumb old me just sat there with my mouth agape. Yolanda looked at me like I was crazy but introduced us as they carried on in conversation. I never said anything the whole time, he was that fine, had me speechless. Luckily she didn't press me on it after he left, shrugging it off as me being the typical rude Jaycee. If she only knew!
I didn't run into Keith until about a month later my friends had dragged me out to a lounge since we hadn't been out in a while and just like any party if there wasn't a cute guy to grab my attention I wasn't interested. So I danced around with them looking bored until this guy bumped me. I started to get smart but his friend caught my eye. It was Keith! Him in the club? Couldn't be! I mean at work he was pretty nerdy which is why I was shocked I liked him, he was all about the job and this guy standing in front of me cursing to lyrics with not one but two drinks in his hand couldn't possibly be him?
I took my phone and shined it in their direction. I didn't care I needed a good look at his face to see if it was him, both of our friends and him looked at me like I was crazy and then he recognized me and pulled me in for a hug. You know i just about melted. He turned me around just like that and we started dancing.......... and dancing........... and dancing.
He finally whispered in my ear "Didn't know you could move so well, are you going to let me call you after tonight?" Ummmm "Duh!" I wanted to say but instead I smiled and pulled out my phone. We exchanged numbers and flirted a bit more before my friends had to practically pull me away. I was so hype all weekend waiting for him to call, but it didn't happen that weekend, not did he pass my desk at work all that week. He ALWAYS had to pass my desk to get to his this meant he was avoiding me . That pissed me off, nothing had even happened! Why take my number if you want to play games?
By the Friday I chalked it as a lost and headed to VA for my Bday weekend. I was headed out the door for my official birthday party in Norfolk VA when my cell buzzed. It was almost midnight so I figured it was an early birthday call. I started to ignore it since I was running late but when I glanced down at the phone I saw "KEITH" blinking back and forth 0n the screen. I almost choked and dropped everything in my hands to answer. I was too old to be acting so foolish over a boy I hardly knew but so what!
I got myself together before finally answering "Hello?"..........................

Thursday, September 23, 2010

This is why I stay inside......

My friends have been begging me to come out for weeks, they think I'm changing and turning into a homebody, I just get sick and tired of running into loser after loser when we go out. Eden wasn't the best apple on the tree but he did have his plus's.

Take Monday for example, i go out with Dana (whose also my roommate) and I tell her I must be in before midnight because I have an early day the next day. We go to a bar and everything is fine people are approaching me I'm smiling and turning them down because I already know it will go nowhere. We finally leave and a guy rushes past handing me his card. I want to throw it on the ground but that's the rude Jaycee talking to i smile and place it in my Gucci Boston bag. Dana is lallygagging and he takes that as a opportunity to walk us to the car. I am really being rude and short answering him because now I'm annoyed. Dana is totally entertaining the 33 year old hospital worker and feels like she has the authority to pass him my number since he has now asked three times. We finally leave and i feel like the night was a waste.

The next day I'm at work and i get a text:

hey jaycee, hows your day going, hopefully good!

No surprise its the guy. Is that really cool to use the number you had to beg my friend for? I reply back something shirt and regular and forget about the incident. An hour later i have 15 texts from this guy going off because i haven't been responding. He then proceeds to call from various numbers asking me why am i not responding. I'm like well I am at work. That must not be good enough because the next text go something like this:

You better not ever come to that bar again or you wont see the next day!

You think your too good to talk to me, you didn't even give me a chance

Your mother will attend a early funeral

You better change your number I'm going to call all day every day

This went on for 3 hours, needless to say it scared the crap out of me and I am pissed with Dana! And all she can say is "I'm sorry, hes probably just trying to scare you though!"

"Well its working, and how do you know hes not serious someone is probably in their grave now thinking someone was just trying to scare them" i fussed.

Dana didn't respond and I haven't ran into her at the apt yet, this is why I stay inside!

Dear Summer,

Here it is the end of summer and I got absolutely nothing out of it that I planned on.

A few years ago me and my friends decided we would be married and with our first child at 25. Well Ive been 25 25 for over 3 motnhs now and guess what? I dont even have a boyfriend potential.
Lets start from the beginning I guess. I had a boyfriend a GREAT one! Back in 2003 I relocated to MD for college. I was in a relationship with my then high school sweetheart whose not important. We broke up in 2005 and I finally gave "Eden" a chance".

Eden had been hot on my heels since freshman year and gave me all kinds of gifts. He was far from my type tho. He was short and a tad bit chubby but he had an excellent fashion sense and spoiled me rotten. We were the highlight of campus for the next few years, and I graduated in 2007. Good right? Not! I started working for the goverment and I didnt depend on Eden as much as I had anymore. He was struggling in school and we had recently moved in together and it went downhill from there. Every other day there was a argument about how I had changed and thought I was now better then him. He eventually quit college and started working full time and as you can guess we broke up. And as you can guess months later we got back together, its just not the same I dont love Eden like I use to we are in two separate places in life. He suggest the dumbest things to me like "Lets just have a baby we can get married later when I can afford it" To me if you cant afford marriage how the heck can you afford a kid?

So last week I finally told him the truth "Eden im not in love with you anymore, your a great friend you do alot for me, but the intimacy isnt there, and I dont feel how I use to!" Silence!
He finally spoke "Im not going through this again Jaycee, your either going to be with me, try to be with me, ornothing at all, we cant be friends!"
Ummmm! I dont do too good with ultimatums so I told him politely as I could I'd take the "nothing at all" option and ended the call. I should have known it wouldnt fly over that easy he went into a rant about how I have never loved him and so forth and now i really see that this should be done and over with and im fine with that.

So Dear Summer, thanks for nothing! You let me waste it with my ex!

Intro :)

This is basically a fictional blog, some real incidents will be thrown in here and there, and I would love feedback and comments and any ideas. Im open and Im new to this, I just enjoy reading blogs so much I decided to try my hand. Lets hope for the best :) Oh and duh its going to be about a 25 year old girl named Jaycee, whose single so far, no children, college degree, moved away from home and in the working world and dating. I havent got pass that part yet lol