Im still human.................

Call me dumb, but I gave in to Fred antics. I knew he was lying, I knew that girl and him were something but I did believe that she was an ex. He told me she had come over in the middle of the night and his mom had let her in and she must have went through his phone. He told me that his mother and her were really close even after their break-up so she still came by and stuff. Whateverrrrrr, I wanted to tell him.

I decided what was the harm in chatting with the guy I was not going to marry him or anything clearly he was a player so we could play each other. Over the next few months we kept in contact and so did his girlfriend. She wanted to throw in my face every single time they had contact. She was always calm and eventually admitted they weren't actually a couple but he still treated her as number one. I kept trying to tell her it wasn't like that and I never told him she called and neither did he. It was a big game to me, and she was actually funny to listen to she told me all their business and the most interesting stories. I cant count the times she would call during my work hours and talk for hours continuously. She was clearly still in love, but for her to be so much older she was so childish, we were not friends for her to be dishing out her life story and whatnot.

I'm sure I was just lonely. Keith was blah for the moment and we never had anything to talk about I mean he did and I listened. But when it was my turn I always felt like his mind drifted and I hated that. It was so one-sided when it came to us and I was kind of use to at least being paid SOME attention, definitely not ignored! Keith was a good cuddle buddy, he still stayed at home too, he was saving for a house and lived in the basement, I went over every now and then and laid up but as much as I tried to fall for him I felt like I was always having to prove myself. He was a bit more refined then me so I tried to show him I could be too. He liked politics so as much as I didn't care I sat and listened and BS'ed my way through conversations surrounding that. He liked hardcore rap so I listened to songs on end to show I could be down. He thought I didn't dress up enough at work so I switched my wardrobe up to strictly office attire. I had never dressed bad I was just good at dressing a jean up, but he felt like jeans were for Fridays only so that's what I conformed too! I had to get a grip, this wasn't even my guy and here I was changing already. I had never done that before, it was take me how I am or leave me so I definitely needed a break from Keith asap!

Summer left and Winter approached and I got my break when I went home for the Thanksgiving holiday. Fred was so hype to have me in his vicinity and invited me and my friends out. I was game and so were they. We got dolled up and I put on all my designer wear and hit the club. He bought us a VIP section complete with champagne bottles and we danced the night away. Every now and then I danced with him but not too much Fred wasn't the cutest and I was sober, plus he smoked cigarettes and the smell was the utmost turnoff. It made me want to vomit! After the club we all went to eat and then to an after hours place, he tried to get me to come stay the night with him but I wasn't having it. Sure enough when I got home the "girlfriend" was calling. "I guess you turned him down because he just called and said he's on his way here and I know your in town". I hung up on her and went to sleep. I didn't have time for their crap tonight I was too tired.

I decided I had had my fun with Fred though and it was time to cut him and his sidekick loose, it was fun while it lasted but all he could offer was good convo and a VIP section at the club, that wouldn't last so i cut my ties and igged him the rest of my vacay. I enjoyed my family and friends and had a ball. I mean yeah I slipped back into Fred before and I don't regret it, I mean after all, I'm still human!